Annoyed

Im soo annoyed!:(
Yesterday i thought I had a dentist appointment so i went there only to get told that my appointments actually today. Which was ok cause it was only down the road from where i live. So this morning i woke up early just to go to my appointment, and again!!.. When i got there, (which was like 10minutes ago) they told me i had a fee to pay to get them checked out since im not 18 anymore even though im still in full-time education which would cost me 18quid. So i called up the usual dentist which i go to all the way in Fulham and asked if i was still free even though im 19, and they told me that if im still in college, then yeh im still free!!!!grrrr  But even after that, the lady behind the desk still said i had to pay and that the NHS dental service at fulham were wrong-+_+
I need this my molar taken out of my mouth ASAP!!!
Im just tooo lazy to goo all the way to Fulham especially when i have no time!!:(

FUCK IM FAT

Hello Hello Hello!!

People have been telling me iv put on allot of weight! Is this true?? Is this what I've been finally waiting for?

to gain weight?.

This was my plan though, to get meaty:s.. but is it what I expected? NO!

For the past year I have been trying to gain the weight I needed to. I get really paranoid and upset when people tell me i'm too skinny or i need to eat more; all the vitamins are going to my hair n all sorts.

But I do eat A LOT. and when I say allot I really mean it. lol. I eat like a fatboy eating his fat cake in the movie 'Matilda' ..lmao. But yes, now that people have started to notice it, iv started to notice it myself.

It started off when one of my girls came to my workplace to drop off their cv with her boyfriend, she noticed something different about me, my face has put on weight. After that I started started to stare at the mirror everyday at work and then i noticed it.. my chubby face:O LOL I did not expect to see a double chin when i move my head down slightly!! I was well shocked, at first i thought to myself.. ok yay iv gain weight finally.

Then i clocked more when i saw photos from peoples facebook albums where im tagged in, and BOY i have flabs on my belly! looks like i have a frigging bear belly, i mean wtf man, I notice myself always trying to breath in nowadays and suck my belly in at work, cause I see a pop belly every time i stand sideways in-front of the mirror, as if I'm pregnant! which im not! lol. Im starting to think im putting on the weight i didn't want to have, I thought I could manage the extra meat, but its all looking wrong and its ending up it unwanted places!

But anyways.. i think im going to go back to my usual weight by not eating 3double cheeseburgers and a happy meal everyday on my lunch break at work. BECAUSE thats what i've been eating everyday at work! Blame it on the McD's i say!!!! and the nandos and t.g.i's!!! lol.

I guess this is really sad talking about my weight lol. Let me see if i can get back to my 6stone and half body weight from a 7stone and a half:D. I'm actually surprised that I now weigh 7.5stones.. can u believe it? lol shutup.

xoxoxo

My To Do List

Catch up on-line:

The Vampire Diaries 

90210

True Blood

Super-Natural

Gossip-Girl

College Assignments

Nick: ask team what I need to do

Doug: start on book! Research, planning, primary photos

Nicola: FMP! Research, planning

Sue: sketches, life Drawings

Improve on my portfolio in case of any portfolio reviews.

book a holiday request for Summer (abit excited lol)


Give my two weeks notice for some changes on my availability at work because I don't think I can handle my assignments and work everyday.

Start doing college work at home! 

The first pairs of shoes I've purchased at my work place.. 
Kurt Geiger .. :D

THE YEAR 2010

Wow a lot has happened recently.. so many things to talk about with so little time!! My brothers bugging me, wanting to play on the laptop, which gives me not a lot of time to blog!
Hmmm what can i talk about for 5mins? Oh YES! I've finaly got a job for the first time ever=D happy me:) ..not a BUM anymore. Earning money now.. but owing money to ALOT of people!! e.g my family. I quit my first job after 7DAYS!! After i found out I got offered  a new and BETTER JOB that i thought would not have gotten!! woohooo. I deal with SHOES!! love love shoes! I bet you anything that I'll always buy a pair of CARVELA shoes after every payday which is every month!!! arghh ive got to sort out my tax shiznits and sort out my money!! OOOO ive booked a holiday for the SUMMER already!!! Heres me getting excited over summer when its still WINTER and hasnt even gotten into SPRING yet! harhar.. I've fallen in AND out AND in love again!!  soo long to explain right now:( ..omy i keep babbling on and on, I probably don't make any sense right now and iv probably lost you with what's going on. But will blog somemore!!! SOOON!:D
until next time!!!!!!!! byeee xx